Ramblings of a Believer

I am so used to wanting more; more time, more food, more money, more, more, more, and then some more. What do I really need in order to do what I was created to do? I love the passage in Proverbs 30:8-9, “⁸…give me neither poverty nor riches, but give me only my daily bread. ⁹Otherwise, I may have too much and disown you and say, ‘Who is the LORD?’ Or I may become poor and steal, and so dishonor the name of my God.” I love this passage because it reminds me that the only thing I really need in my life is God. He provides everything I need, from the food I eat, to the time I have on this earth. What I see as necessity is not necessarily what I need. The passage points to how I really act, which makes me want more than I need so I don’t have to rely on God. I want a security blanket so I don’t have to rely on someone else. God wants us to rely on Him, not so that we are codependent, but that we are fully within His plan. God reminded me of this when I lost my job a few years ago. The day I received my last paycheck and the health insurance ran out, He not only continued to provide my family with food and shelter, but He also provided the time I needed to reconnect with Him. He gave me the time to see that He had not left me and that He still desired to be in relationship with me. Even through that experience I still find myself wanting more than what I really need. I want that security to know I can survive when things go badly. My prayer is for one day to believe the realization that even when things go bad, God is still there and wants me to rely on Him and not on my own security. One day I will have the courage to ask for ‘just enough’; it’s all I really need!